Back to Myself

昨天金曲獎落幕，老實說還蠻精彩的。

JJ終於拿下最佳男歌手，也很喜歡他跟Jason Mraz的合唱I'm yours，和諧度太完美了。

最佳年度歌曲獎競爭好激烈，不過李宗盛的山丘實至名歸。

Jolin的壓軸表演雖然有看頭，但是有一點小失望。其實是想看她跳舞，總覺得還有一些代表性的老歌沒有出來。

中新生代吉他表演那一段也很到位。

張小燕代領彭國華的特別貢獻獎那段太催淚了...

主持人哈林也表現得不錯。

特效團隊也做得超好，陳鎮川超強。

雖有些美中不足，但我實在是很不喜歡有些人一直酸、一直批評，非常討厭這種酸民文化。

最高興的還是林俊傑得獎

Few days ago, he sent a msg to me and asked me if I was doing good.

It's been more than a month since last time we chatted. 

I told him I was fine, and life was still pretty much the same.

He said that I seem to have a pretty good life. 

Whatever.

It's really hard to let people understand how tough life could be under this circumstance. 

You get so many things to learn and desire to prove yorself in workplace.

You spend most of time on taking care of family and almost have no personal life.

You have no spare time for friends, for love, and for dreams.

You see your mom become weaker and weaker, but you can do nothing about it.

You know she's been tortured both phisically and mentally,

but sometimes you just don't know how to control yourself and try to be more petient to her. 

It's espeically harder when there is no one who can stay by.

When your other family members are not supportive at all.

And you know it's not gonna help if you tell anyone about how your life is.

'how are you?', 'how's your life going?', 'how's your mom?'

I'm so sick of answering such questions.

Yet,

I'm thankful to those friends who can understand my situation and don't blame me for being too tired to reply msgs in time.

What would you say if you were still with me?

What would you do if you still cared about me?