Back to Myself

I have no idea what kind of joke it is.

Just few days after I wrote that article about my family.

My mom was announced that she had getten colon cancer, 4th stage.

I didn't cry when the doctor explained to me with patient.

I didn't cry either when I witnessed the pain she was suffering from.

However,

As returning home on my own, entering her dim room,

I totally broke down.

I couldn't help it.

When I listen to this song, I think of her.

I think of that how wide and wonderful world she has created for me.

She is always so supportive even though she worries so much about me.

Everytime I wanna leave and explore the world, she says nothing but blessing.

Everytime I come back with wounds, she is always there for me.

It is not until now that I realize how unbearable it is to see your beloved is in pain.

And you are extremely helpless, you can do nothing about it.

How could she do so much for me without complaining?

No more tears from now on.

gotta be brave and strong to face whatever is coming to our family.

cuz I know,

I just can't be her little princess anymore.